For three agonising years Kiwi motocross rider Courtney Duncan has had to watch other competitors claim the world title that many believed should've have been hers.
She has overcome four knee reconstructions and the 22-year-old is still recovering from a broken foot, the latest injury keeping her off her bike.
Next year she is aiming to turn her fortunes around.
"Got to put all this shit that's happened behind me and keep going," said Duncan.
For the past three seasons she had led the world series, but a German photographer denied her three years ago which led to her breaking her wrist.
A pile of riders got in the way during a championship decider and this year looked to be her year until she broke her foot.
"Kinda got jammed between the frame and the ground and it crushed it."
Duncan will be spending her Christmas at home near Dunedin, trying to get back on the bike and riding again.
She has made the big call to finish up with her Kiwi team to explore overseas options.
"Hopefully got some exciting plans coming up."